bands

i might have finally found a drummer for my band. i really hope he works out because then our line-up will be almost ready. i hope everything works out, im ready for something to happen and frankly , even if i only get to play one show, ill still have lived out a dream of mine and ill be happy

i learn alot about myself by writing

i guess ive spent enough days sitting at my computer to realize i really am lacking excitement in my life, i dont go out with friends ( partially because i only have a couple of friends id want to see outside of school ) and for about 90% of the time i sit by myself. i need to take some chances but i dont have anyone to take them with and at this point i dont even know if the opportunity were to arise to take some chances if i even could, why am i so afraid of embarrasment? it doesnt matter and i dont really care what people think of me anyway but i still get embarrased... i guess ill go try and write some more music but i suppose writing music isnt really as satisfying if in the end there isnt anyone to share it with...

next year

will be incredible, 6 music and art classes and one english class. im not going to have a singe bit of homework all year, ill have to figure out what to do with all that free time, i cant wait.

Almost Done

only a couple more weeks of swimming. i think its one of those sports where you get really excited about it and then after it starts you wonder why you ever signed up in the first place haha. the last real meet is this saturday and then just conference and sectionals. this might be the first year ill go sub-minute in the 100 free, which will make my entire year. the last 2 times i swam it i went 1:00, so frustrating so close but itll happen.

Done.

i think ive finally decided to stop being so cynical about everything and try and be optimistic. life is much to short to be so negative, our government is still gonna suck but its inevitable, and frankly there really isnt anything better. but as for everything else im trying something new and looking at things the way i want them to be instead of getting down about it. maybe some good things will come my way because of it, who knows.

ouch..

five hours on a school bus is WAY more than enough for one day. swim meet in Plattville, WI., 2 and a half hours away. definately not worth it

Obama?

seriously? im so sick of listening to "this is history in the making" why dont we stop worrying about the color of his skin and delve a little deeper into his policies. i really dont have an opinion as far as that goes because frankly, any government body dem or rep is gonna be corrupt and stupid so there will never be a good choice but for the love of god, just because he's black doesnt mean he should be president.. what has this country come to?

Stupid Coaches

swim meet today, we did great but our idiot assistant coach didnt see it that way. freshman broke a school record and we came within like 6 points of winning even without divers and having about half the people. why cant people be happy for the little things and look at the big picture. winning isnt everything...ever..

Really?

interesting experience today. i sat and listened to a girl complain about how her GPA might drop from a 4.17 to a 4.0 because she got one B, and from that freak out about how it will effect her class rank.. is this really what life has become about? shouldn't we be worried about things that matter like, relationships and living our lives instead of worrying about a class rank that wont matter once you cross that graduation stage? some people are hopeless it seems

One Of My Passions

i've started writing music , doing so makes me feel like im really connecting with my true self, its very new to me so the songs themselves i know arent that great but they mean something to me so thats all that matters :) . if you wanna check it out , go to my myspace. please enjoy, i know i do.

STOP!

i guess this is a more frustrated way to start blogging then i would have hoped for but it seems like a good idea to start and i suppose this is just what needs to be said right now (even though noone that this applies to will be reading it).

so here's the deal. STOP asking me to get back together with her! i know you feel like you have to add your two cents but seriously, enough is enough. its not what i feel is a good idea right now and thats just the way it is. if that upsets you , tough, its not your life, its mine.
and on that note, i'm finally figuring out who i am and what i value the most and doing things that i love to do and have a true passion for so thats what ill keep doing, i'm not about to waste my time on something hopeless , sorry.