i guess ive spent enough days sitting at my computer to realize i really am lacking excitement in my life, i dont go out with friends ( partially because i only have a couple of friends id want to see outside of school ) and for about 90% of the time i sit by myself. i need to take some chances but i dont have anyone to take them with and at this point i dont even know if the opportunity were to arise to take some chances if i even could, why am i so afraid of embarrasment? it doesnt matter and i dont really care what people think of me anyway but i still get embarrased... i guess ill go try and write some more music but i suppose writing music isnt really as satisfying if in the end there isnt anyone to share it with...